Love
It's late saturday night and I've spent the day installing a new edit bay at Filmpool in Burbank. I LOVE putting together new systems. Taking all the components out of the boxes. Figuring out where they should go, what the "ergonomics" of everything will be. (now wasn't that a 50 cent word?) So today was spent doing something I love. As satisfying as it is though doing something that I love cannot compare to the power of spending time with someone that I love. As much fun as I had today I come home sad and lonely to an empty bed. No love here in the dark of the night. No restless stirring followed by a murmured greeting and the comfort of my lover snuggling up next to me as I slip into bed. Memories of her still haunt me, and I hope for reconciliation where there is no hope. Once upon a time I knew that we were destined to be together forever. Our relationship was old. We'd been doing this early and often down throughout the ages through our different lifetimes. This time it was short lived, barely a year. I fear that I will spend the rest of my life getting over her. How do I let her go so that my heart can open up for love again? I'd like to think that I've forgiven her long ago, and that I'm done with it, but still there are days when I can hardly think of anything but her. If you're reading this and you have a lover whom you care deeply about make sure that you let them know. Every moment you spend with them is a lifetime of joy and happiness. Let them know how very much you love them. Let them know. Love Hurts and Life's not fair. With that begin said, when you find love grab ahold and ride for all its worth. K, I've rambled on long enough tonight in my own private misery. Now I'm going to go slip into bed, alone, and when I wake up in the morning it will be a new day. A day that I will greet with joy and happiness looking forward to the adventure that is this life. Love may hurt, and life may not be fair, but every day is a blessing. Even if its a lonely blessing...
